I guess 'breaks' might come for us (all in kp) in the thick of denial when we do our darndest to block what is, and then we have periods of better functioning that can last even a year or two which can give us a 'break' from living 'within' the darkness, but no, we don't get 'breaks' from what is our reality as such. Is that what you meant? Sorry you are hurting and confused. Are you in contact with your T?