tree, I don't resond much to you becasue you seem to open up and then go defensive again...almost like the real you comes through who isn't all together that is f**ked up like us all then the little gal who preys to god, who wants to be a good gal to gawd appears...perso ally if god is there he'll be fine with you not finding grace in all things and will let you be angry and f**ked up and I never did think you were that together that going down to one a wk was right, yes perhaps financially but not emtionally...i'm surprised your T doesn't see that?...this isn't an attacking post to you, î hope you can read it in the true light it is given...