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It's true that I've learned in therapy that I can feel some really big, overwhelming feelings, and survive. That's been a huge lesson for me. Before, I had to find a way to numb out - dissociate, use bad coping skills, whatever -because, I think on some level, I was afraid feelings that big would kill me.

Now that I've felt something that big, it's given me a freedom in my day-to-day life. I know it's safe for me to feel, and that no matter how awful my feelings are, they WILL change eventually. the only way I could learn that was in therapy, where I was safe, and contained. So I really do agree with what your T said about that.

As for the touching....different T's have different boundaries around it. you were brave to ask. I wonder if you and T can find different ways for you to feel soothed...through T's words, or through her moving closer, like poetgirl said, or some other thing that feels "right" to you??