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Originally Posted by Melbadaze
No it wasn't meant in any insulting manner, its something we all do, isn't it? use defences to hide from ourselfs our real feelings at times? Tree I just took it for granted you understand that, my fault for taking that for granted...everyone does it to a degree, I think those of us with trauma do it more so, has that explained it? You understand this from your own therapy don't you?
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Absolutely! AND my post was about my real feelings.
I'm grateful that all of this therapy has allowed me to get closer to being my authentic self. Before therapy, I really was just a pile of defenses. I'm much much close now to just being me.
And certainly, in this e-mail to T, I was being absolutely honest and real. I'm not sure why being angry and being grateful are mutually exclusive? Or maybe I'm misreading what you wrote.
Honestly, I was just looking for some support for some genuine pain, support that wasn't available from T right then.