((((((((((Tree)))))))))))))) It is true that the past can't be undone. :-(

But it is also true that the future belongs to you.

Just keep that in mind as you are processing these triggers and this level of agony.
This is the work. This is the hardest part of the whole experience. And what you feel is the reason I want to seriously harm those big loosers who do things to harm others like what was done to you. It is not fair that you suffer this way. They are the ones who deserve to have the pain you have right now.

All I can do is offer you my virtual arms and just let you know that I also understand the pain and how real it is. You have to do this as you because no one else can take the pain away from you. But you are NOT doing this alone. You have others standing with you on this journey who know too deeply how you are hurting. And they love you very very much - like I do. You are not alone.