Hi. I apologize in advance for whining and venting . . . but I'm very upset and need to vent my thought so maybe it will go away. I went to my regular doctor for pain control a few months ago and ended up being diagnosed with depression. I didn't see this coming--I was so stuck in survival mode. The doctor put me on Cymbalta and I started feeling alive again. At first I thought I was lucky someone saw this, was giving samples of a prescription that was working and there was no way I could afford not having insurance, but then I started getting angry . . . uncontrollable anger . . . mostly at my situation (as caregiver for my mom). Then the doctor put me on Buspar for the anger--which has really just been a bad experience all around. The Buspar just intensified anxiety--I was driving myself crazy clamping my jaw, holding my breath, shaking my leg, you name it--or just being enraged. Anyway, I explained this to her, and it was like . . . "well, you didn't respond like we'd hoped, too bad, so sad, by!" I left and then came to the conclusion I can't tolerate the Buspar, so I called back and she told me how to stop taking it. So now I'm depressed, angry, and driving myself crazy, and withdrawing from Buspar. And honestly . . . without trying to sound meoldramatic . . . not sure how long I can continue feeling like this . . .

Thanks for a safe place to vent.
Gena