<font color="purple">For me it is feeling of release. A release of what is going on on the inside. Growing up, it was not acceptable for me to express myself unless it was a smile. I had many emotions built up and altho back then I didnt udnerstand that I would hurt myself on purpose because of that, as I got older and my S/I intensified, I became aware of the why's. I have not hurt myself in a while now, but oh those everyday accidents sometimes trigger that urge. It is a constant struggle. In many wasy the emotion pain is far more painful than the physical.
Melinda </font>