I'm so sorry you're going through this.. I've been right where you are and had no where to turn.. 10 years ago I was dx with severe depression.. and now I come to find out I was mis-dx and I'm actually Bipolar 1 and BPD. I could have saved my first marriage had I known this sooner!! (been married and divorced 2 again since) Do what you have to, looks like you've taken the first step by comin here.. Welcome!