Sort of, yeah. If/when she says things like "you're doing good, keep up the good work" it doesn't seem to trigger it, but in other things. When I feel/notice a subtle shift in the extent to which she coddles me, and I know it's out of trying to gently but indirectly get me to be less dependent on her, I get upset. Even if/when I know she's right to implement the shift and I'm probably ready for it, I feel manipulated and lacking in control over my own rate of progress.

To some extent I almost feel like she's controlling the rate of my progress--or at least, once I know she's begun expecting more from me, that I have no logical choice but to go with it and move forward (b/c it's not going to hurt anyone but me if I don't). But I feel angry. I guess sliding back and that being ok almost doesn't enter my mind.

...I guess the ultimate answer to your question is yes, I feel as though it's not ok to slide back. But I'm not sure if it's an issue of keeping her approval, or of having control over the rate of my progress.

It's like "Damn it, I know you're right and I know better than to do anything but keep moving forward, but that just makes me feel cornered."

I dunno...feeling so much right now... Thanks Janniebug