My aunt and uncle used to stay with us when he was unemployed. They had 4 children and we all shared rooms. I have very vague memories that have been becoming more clear over the years of my cousin being inappropriate. It was in our old house which we moved out of when I was 5 so I was at least 5 or younger. After we moved the entire family basically disappeared and I didn't see any of them since. My uncle came into town for my grandmother's funeral in 2006 and that's the only time I have seen him in 18 years.

Well the other day my aunt (not his wife, a different aunt) friended me on facebook. When I accepted and went to her profile it popped up my uncle's name as a friend suggestion. When I clicked on him and saw his son (my cousin) on there my heart dropped into my feet. I felt flush all over but can't really remember anything to make me feel that way. Even now thinking about him I feel like my heart is racing.

I feel like something had to have happened and it was obviously something for my family to hide and never talk about. I want to ask my mom if something happened with him when I was younger but don't know how to go about it. I just have this strong feeling like he did something he shouldn't have and wish I could remember but feel like my mind is repressing it for a reason.

The only thing I remember is very vaguely my mom and dad asking me if we had showed our 'privates' to each other. But that's it. And I didn't remember that until recently. Should I let this go or try to find out what happened? On one hand I feel like if I don't find out it will eat away at me. On the other hand, I don't want anyone else to have to relive it if it was something terrible. And I feel embarrassed about even asking. What if I'm totally wrong and go accusing and asking about something that never happened? I know there have been cases of people 'inventing' memories. I'm so confused.