I have been waking up crying every morning this week sitting on the bus going to work i find myself with tears in my eyes i have to keep telling myself keep it in keep going I am scared I feel so sad and hurt inside. I go to see my therapist today and have one of those forms to fill out so they can judge how you are feeling. My heart feels like I have something tight around it I dont want to leave the house. I just want to go to sleep yet I am finding the only relief I get sometimes in sleep difficult. When I told someone how I had been feeling they told me that I had to stop crying as I'd make myself ill. I am already ill. They suggested I needed a holiday but that would not make any difference because that would bring up a whole lot of other problems. I was greatful for their concern but its hard to explain that depression is not something you can shake off. I have been saying in my head when I feel the tears and the dread comming on positive thoughts think positive or just saying prayers to distract myself.