question - are you this posters husband? if not then how you you know whether or not this posters husband has said or done anything to make this poster feel this way. saying you doubt it and you dont think so in response to your own questions to this poster without the poster replying one way or the other is making a judgement about someone elses life. the fact is there isnt enough information in the posters post to allow any of us to make any judgements of what this husband has or hasnt done other than the statement that the husband made the decision of where the poster and husband was going to spend their christmas holiday.
Working in a crisis center for things like domestic violence I can say from that reference to the husband it could go either way.
Marriedbee Im glad you have chosen to give therapy a try. I also wanted you to know that there are both medicated ways and non medicated ways that work with the problems that you have posted about.
Talk to your treatment providers and they can help you find a treatment option that is both good for you and fits in with your personal beliefs on what is best for you.