I love your way of describing the 'out of focus photo.' Most of my own memories are the same, and I have trouble trying to explain it to others.

As for the 'voices,' I don't think I experience this in the same way others here do (although I'm not sure). I do have an internal monologue of uncontrolled thoughts which I'm not consciously thinking though. I have also experienced certain strong thoughts jumping out at me which don't seem to make any sense. I haven't figured out how much of this is connected to the dissociation and how much is anxiety though. I'm still in a real jumbled mess of confusion about the whole thing.

Anyways, I've found the best way for me to deal with these 'outside' thoughts is to first let them in. The more I try to push them out or ignore them, the worse they get. Then I try to rationally address whatever is coming at me and where it is coming from in a very concrete way. Sometimes I'll speak out loud when doing this. Of course, this process is a lot easier when I can get some frame of reference regarding what the 'voices' are talking about. When it's just random instructions or concepts, then I just get confused.