My first post on here... I've suffered on and off with depression since my early 20's, and have been taking anti-depressants now for just over 3 years. The anti-depressants work, I don't feel low or suicidal, but I just don't feel in control at the moment...

I have SO many conflicting roles. I am a single mum of 3 girls, 2 of which are teenagers.
I am an occupational therapist working in older peoples mental health,
I am a diabetic,
plus, of course, I am a housewife, friend (of sorts) and girlfriend (boyfriend lives approx 10 miles away)

At present I don't feel I'm doing any of the above well... My diabetes is out of control, which then makes me ill so I'm not at work as often as I should be.
At work things are awful - none of the therapy staff are happy with all the changes going on and the lack of direction - which really doesn't help my mental and physical health. Plus my daughters see me at home a lot and think they can just skip school when they 'have a headache' etc. And, I admit it, when I'm feeling really low I let them stay off school - WHICH MAKES ME A REALLY BAD MOTHER.
Plus the house is a mess and I just don't seem to have the time, energy or inclination to do anything about it. I don't have the energy, either to ask the girls to help, even though if they don't help out they get no pocket money. I feel my apathy and lack of motivation is rubbing off on them - which makes me feel awful.

I know I need to be more3 organised, but I really don't know where to start...... Makes me want to curl up in a corner and come out when it's all sorted, and I know that ain't gonna happen...

I don't know where to start.... HELP!