Hello, Distressed2010. Whether success or failure it is fear. According to the DMS-IV, rationalization occurs "when the individual deals with emotional conflict or internal or external stressors by concealing the true motivations for his or her own thoughts, actions, or feelings through the elaboration of reassuring or self serving but incorrect explanations."

Are your concerns about gaining the weight back or getting pulled down rationalizations for your fear? If so, perhaps you might benefit from choosing some goals you are less afraid of to engender confidence?

“First you write down your goal; your second job is to break down your goal into a series of steps, beginning with steps which are absurdly easy.” ~Fitzhugh Dodson

Good luck.