There's a cold front coming in (good) but ahead of a front... you know... rain storms. It was terrible last night... heavy rains and strong winds... it seemed like forever... then today... dark clouds and intermittent rain... I had to "numb up" just to do the stuff I had no choice but to do... when I would have been better off mentally to stay home and isolate and protect and not expose myself to even more.

I don't like it that I don't like even a rain shower nowdays. My mind can register it that "It's not a hurricane" "I'm not in danger." but the body doesn't get the message... ptsd.