Sadly, it is these imaginations / fantasies that are the best part of my day. They are the only consolation that I have. My limited diet has taken the joy out of eating and still leaves me often with an unsettled stomach. I have tried finding new hobbies but have not met with success. Having fun is something I have always had a hard time with. It seems I never learned to play well with others. I don't seem to have the fundamentals to help me to continue to grow and succeed, especially socially. It has been a life-long problem.