Bama, you have to remember you're new to sobriety again. I know what that's like. You know it's not easy. You know it's an emotional roller coaster. You've done this before, remember? You know this too shall pass. You've started working the steps again, so you know you'll feel better soon. Don't quit again before the miracle. Go back and look at your inventory. "Every time I care, I get hurt". The solution to that attitude is sure to be in your inventory. Why do you think you get hurt, what's your part. Get back on your side of the street and see what your part is. Make a gratitude list. Make a God box. Turn your family over to your Higher Power and worry about YOU right now. Keep saying the serenity prayer. Say more than 8 times, it's ok. What do I do when the going gets tough? I go to a meeting. I call my sponser. I call another in recovery. But most of all, I PRAY. I just pray for guidence, pray for sanity, ask what I can do to be a channel, to be of service. I try to help another, but only to the best of my ability, and not if it will damage my sobriety. Never do a 12 step call on your own, especially in early recovery. Above all, give yourself a damn break, remember you're early in sobriety again, take it easy, take it a day a time, baby steps, you can do it.