I've tried talking to my dad and he just askes if i have any reason to feel sad and i say no then he's like if you have no reason then don't be sad change your attitude. I hate that I can't just say ok lets be happy hell if i could i would. Why do people always think it's so easy. I want to be happy I want to be like everyone else I see at school and be able to smile and it be true, have tons of friends like everyone else not invisible, I want to be able to eat without being afraid or counting calories or binging and purging all the time. I hate getting up everymorning and feeling this overwhelming feeling and having to do this all over again every day. I feel like i'm hanging by a thread and it's about to break.