I am not sure what is wrong with me. My last pdoc said I was bipolar. Before that I was just depressed and suicidal. For the last 5 years I have been in the bed. No interest in anything just waiting to die. Nothing excites me anymore. I feel my life is over. i have a very good online friend who has been trying to get me to come visit her to get me out of this house. The thing is she is on the other side of the continent and in another country. We talk on the phone often but I feel I would disappoint her if she met me. All my friends are online since i don't get out of my house much. I hate depression it takes away everything, your joy, your spirit and your will to live. I just exist.
Tired of everything