it seems to me that you need time out before you burn out completely... is there no way you can arrange for your three children to go on a few sleepovers at their friends to give you a little space to relax after work, just for a few days till you feel a bit better? i am sure they would be up for it and if you talk to their friends mums i am sure they would be happy to help you through this difficult time xx talk to your husband and let him know you are struggling, maybe he could lean a little less of the church stuff your way for a while too xx ((((((((((((((((((((hugs and xxxxx))))))))))))))))))