It was a very emotional night last night for me. I am thankful that somewhere deep down inside of me, despite my feelings for wanting to be unsafe I remained SAFE.
I want to continue to remain SAFE!
I purged my soul last night w/ sobbing and tears and just trying to figure out where I started letting the black darkness to consume me.
I have to retrace some steps I made earlier to begin healing. But, I want to do this because it is important to me to be healthy.
My soul feels lighter despite the exhaustion from my breakdown last night.
I came close to breaking my promise to my T that I would remain safe and I feel very ashamed about that.
I am going to commit to following all of her instructions no matter whether I agree or disagree with them because I am in no position to debate them right now.
I JUST WANNA FEEL BETTER!