Thanks for the reply Rhiannonsmoon.

Well, obviously my moods control me instead of me controlling them. This is how it goes: I shift from being okay to not okay rather quickly, that is within hours and for no big reason, and when Im not feeling okay, I'd be either angry or depressed.
I just don't want to lose him since he's my best friend and knows almost everything about me and understands me a lot.
I don't know...