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The following is intended for the doctors to see, and I was hoping for people's opinions. I haven't brought any of this up with doctors, before, so I'm really nervous and don't know what to expect.
Things are worse at night. I feel things watching me and people spying on me; could be things in the room, watching my every move, or people spying on me, from their houses. When I turn my back I feel like things are there; they make me feel more scared, than ever. I struggle to leave my bedroom to go to the toilet because I feel people are there, watching me and waiting for me. Everytime I go out, I need to protect my brain from people so they don't get inside my head and take things from me. Everytime someone looks at me, I got through the same thing of fighting them off, in my head, so they don't get things. The slightest noise scares me, sending my anxiety and paranoia, through the roof. It has crossed my mind on several occasions that people can walk through walls and have special abilities that they can use against me. Everyone is out to get me, it seems, and it has gotten to the point that I struggle to be out. Whenever I'm in the car, I think people are tailing me; keeping an eye on me. When I was younger, I used to talk to myself excessively; having full-blown conversations with myself. I struggle a great deal with eye contact, because I don't want people in my head. I struggle so much with looking at blank televisions, because they are more detailed and I can see things in them; it's getting progressively worse and has gotten incredibly hard to deal with lately. Even writing this, I'm extremely paranoid that people are going to use it against me in some way or another.
Another thing I find difficult to deal with, is the paranormal: I constantly feel spirits watching me, which sends me into a terrified state. A lot of the time I generally don't know what to do; shouting and screaming won't help, as I'm too scared to, so I tend to just lay on the bed, away from the edges, due to the fear of something grabbing me. I will lay on the bed, scared, shaking sometimes, and not knowing what to do. It's taken me this long to even remotely bring up this suibject; it's only with persuasion that I'm telling someone
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