im on recovery but i cant stand having set backs an relapses its so intense lately its like i have to force myself to eat and keep down i literally force myself its not fun and lately cant sleep well on an empty tummy , why does my body not let me sleep until it gets food ???????///

(body separate then myself)
And my body lately is like giving up trying to signal to me to eat because it gets disappointed when it does not get anything or thinking its not worth it and that in order to get food body feels like it has to earn it and and not get hungry or go towards high calorie foods and to quickly digest if it does get food .

so namely my stomach shrunk and i get full fast but body wants to the food so it digests quickly so i cant thrw it up the small amount of it does get. and i overexcrcise to.

please help or give me tips please