Thank you all - i am sorry i am not up to individual responses but I really really appreciated every one of them.

The hospital appointment today was yet another in the same theme. NO psychotherapy is being offered; the official reason is that it is necessary for me to have a break of 2-3 months after finishing one session of therapy (and they include counselling in this) before starting therapy of any sort with the hospital so that I can process and act on the first therapy. I'd appreciate anyone who knows of any research / ppublished official opinions on this lettingme know in case I can find any energy to fight it.

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I had a breakdown at the news. Went into isolation internally - or tried to. Closed my eyes, rocking, tried to muffle all sound. Wasn't able to filter it all out and eventually the pastor's wife forced me to return though I didn't want to.

I feel hopeless. I have tried to be as clear as I can to everyone about how hopeless I feel. Even told the psychiatrist and social worker that if I had to have a 2-3 month break from all therapy they had no problem, because in 2-3 months with no counselling support I won't be around any more to give them a problem.
I've seen my GP tonight. He has put me on Trazadone to replace the dothiepin.
I spent the afternoon with my pastor & his wife. They were great. Wouldn't let me come home because nobody was there.
I'm not going to work tomorrow (needless to say I didn't go in this afternoon). Tomorrow is an easy day tomiss as I am not teaching in the morning and there is a whole school thing last lesson. I saw a couple of staff when I went in to collect my laptop and daughter. The head was very concerned and asked me to explain; when I did he was appalled. He is going to see if he can access any support for me but I doubt it very much as I think there is only counselling through the organisation. My pastor & his wife are prepared to fight for me when I get the official letter in response to my complaint. I feel unable to fight any more right now.

Caroline