thank you, bmee.

i may try to bring it up in T... i just don't know how. i always let her carry the conversation and mostly answer questions. if it goes in a direction that leads to me opening up about something, i do my best to go with it. but i don't generally bring up things to discuss.

still, i suppose when she asks me how i've been doing since our last visit, i could say something then...

i think part of why it seems so much easier for others to accept this about me and believe it is because 1) it makes sense and 2) it's not them dealing with it.

i don't know.

one says 'you're a liar!' but i say 'no, i'm not' - honestly, the one who calls me a liar sounds a lot like my parents. calling me a drama queen and saying i just want attention and all that bologna.

who do i trust?