invisigirl,

I encourage you to bring it up with your T. It sounds like you are on the verge of being brave enough to do so. I know that sometimes when I go to counseling and have a hard time speaking up, I write things down first before I go that way I have my agenda in front of me (after all I am the one who is paying and it's my dime so why can't I talk about the things I need to?). I usually let my counselor guide our sessions too, but if there is something really important I write it down and tell him that's what I need to work on. Sometimes it is hard for me to tell him out loud, so I write it down and have him read it and go from there. Usually he has questions for me and that leads into our session. I encourage you to write down your feelings about what is happening with you. Also make a record as to what went on. If you feel safe enough, share it with your T. I had a hard time coming to terms with my DID dx, but now that I accept it, it has made life easier. A dx is just a label that describes symptoms and for me it just gives my providers something to work with. I don't let it get to me and even though it is a part of my life, I still move on. My life is not defined by my dx (that's how I feel). Even though my dx is a huge part of my life right now, I have my own things to enjoy and be happy about. I don't even know if this is making any sense anymore, but I wanted you to know that I am thinking about you and I hope you find some peace soon. Sending positive thoughts your way,

Cris from the hotel