if I could go back 19 years (today) and know then what I know now I would go back and teach him not to mess with me!!!!!!! I would teach him that a 9 year chould not perform oral sex on a 31 year old man!!! She should not know what that is... She should not know!!!! She shouldnt spend the whole day throwing up, being sick from what he made her do!!!!!!!

I can't go back. The one thing that I can do, is not let him have control over me anymore.... He had control then... he had control over me until thi year... I have finally realized he can't control me anymore... I control myself... I have to fight it hard... but i can do it....

I hate him!!!! I hate that man....