Hi Dave,

Thanks for writing me a so heartful reply. You seemed in an even harder situation, but you do sound much stronger. I hope you will feel better each day, really... (((((((((dave)))))))))

Woke up this morning, felt like shiiit... Haven't felt this way for a long time since I thought I got over with depression. My work has been giving me a lot of stress, although I will say I enjoy my work, but I guess the pressure just has been accumulating in a subtle way...

Normally when I see a sunshine day like today, I'd feel so happy like the world is mine. But I am not feeling it at all, now

Besides work, I am dealing with a problem with a new friend here. It's actually not necessarily a problem, I guess it's rather sort of confusion. I hate confusion, but when it comes to friendship, what can I say, I just need to be more patient, right?

Some of my friends knew I had depression. During the whole combat, I think I've actually fought alone. I don't think non-depressive people could ever understand this damn thing, not mentioning extending some help in a really effective way. I just think we can't count on other people to come to us and rescure us... It should first start from ourselves, from a willingness of getting better...

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As for now, I don't know how I am gonna to feel tomorrow. You know I have promised myself that I would never get back to depression again, but right now, I am feeling so terrible just like how it was before...

But, have to admit that when I read all your guys replies, it really brought me warmth... Thank you so much.

Dave, nice meeting you. Hope we all do better...

((((((((hugs again))))))))

Best,
Toni

[i] What our mind can conceive and believe, it will achieve.