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Originally Posted by Chaddiwicker
Had a therapy appointment today. Rescheduled for Friday. Had a doctor's appointment for tomorrow. Rescheduled for next week. Got a call from the lawyer. Let it go to voice mail.
I had kind of given myself permission not to worry during the holidays. Now the holidays are over and I feel anxious, scared, overwhelmed and hopeless. My life is a disaster. I want to be able to hide in my apartment and never come out. World won't let me.
Trying to replace my negative thoughts with "positive" ones. Instead of "I want to die", I'm trying to think "I want to live". Been repeating the negative version for years. Not so easy to change my thinking.
Crap. Should have gone to therapy today.
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Hi. I know the feeling. Avoiding everything. Although I do not have many appointments to go to because I cannot afford much help.
I joined an online avoidant message group. The folks there who are sort of successfully managing it seem to do it by pushing themselves through the obstacles no matter what. That makes total sense to me. No matter how much I do not want to do it, just do it. Hummm, now all I have to do is call and make that apt with my MD. well they were supposed to call me months ago to remind me. Is it my fault that they never called?
I know its hard. Believe me. I live it every day. Not very successfully.