Even when I get mad at my H for what he does, and want to walk away (take a time out), I can't.

He depends on me to take care of him. I can't leave him overnight to go and have some 'me' time. I think if I could get away from being a caregiver every now and then, I might not have so much anger built up.

I am sure some of you will ask if there is someone who could take care of him for just one night. The answer to that is no. We don't have anyone trained to do that. Sure we could hire someone that knows how to take care of his needs, but that would cost like an arm and a leg!

Trapped is a word I use often. Yes, I feel trapped. No way out of this.