It bothers me to think about my T having other clients. I know that sounds silly, but it kinda makes me jealous for some reason. I have NEVER seen another client. My T is in private practice and can do kinda what she wants to do as far as scheduling. She told me that she purposely schedules appointments so that none of us run into each other between sessions.

I have been going to her for almost 10 months. Not once, have I seen another client. It kinda made me wonder if I was the only one! I did ask her one time, out of curiousity, if she had like 15 clients or 50. She said (politely) that she could not disclose that information.

The relationship between a T and client is so complicated. I struggled for months about that. Thank goodness, I am finally at a place where I feel comfortable. I am not her best friend, she is not my mother, she is not a potential 'mate'. She is my therapist. That special person that I tell my deepest darkest secrets to. Her role is to be my safe person to go to. She provides a place for me to be myself. That is one rather great person for her to be.

I mean, how many people have that kind of person in their lives?