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Originally Posted by onlymedid
I posted because I was an abuser for years a long time ago and then I stopped. Now....I feel like I could easily get right back into the habit. I can identify that I do use to gain feelings and get rid of feelings. It's not right, is it?
Abstinence must be so hard. Congrats for you!!!
I'm not even sure why I posted here. I guess I am just so confused right now.
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Hello Onlymedid,
Maybe you allready know what the answers are, you yourself said you were an abuser. I do not intend to be hard at you, but I think you might be confused b/c you know this is not right, using substance (meds, alc.) to gain or get rid of a feeling. The fact that you can relate is a major warning.
But only you can answer the question wether you are moving to a relapse. Abstinence is hard to begin with, but it has been giving me so much! Maybe you felt more depressed after the meds had done their work? It's a bit like alcohol, often used as a kind of selfmedication.
I am sober for 6 months now, after about 10 yrs of alcohol, and I;m Dutch, which makes it a bit harder to express my feelings. But I think you were right to come here and ask for some input. And my advice would be: stay away from the substances, pills, alcohol.
Hang in there!