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Originally Posted by antonioxo
today marks the tenth month i have stopped doing drugs and i ask myself this question 'why?'. why did i ever stop in the first place i honestly can't remember why i ever quit what reason or reasons i did or where i even got the motivation to stop i can't think of any reasons not to go back i don't have to stay clean for a job nobody around me gives a crap and most just encourage it it all just seems pointless to stay clean for no reason at all .
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Hello Antonio,
I read your post yesterday and had to think about it. Your question is WHY?
And looking at the replies you've been given, I can only think of: why not??
I can't see your mood, but when "nobody gives a crap" and it is al "pointless", I can imagine it's not good at all. Maybe even depressed. There are more people here who had to deal with underlying issues as soon as they were clean or sober. Could that be the case with you? In that case you might wanna try a therapist, to work on that.
Maybe you miss support, which could be found in AA or NA.
And I wanna congratulate you with 10 months clean! Maybe you should hear that more often.