So. I'm not going to church thi am. I haven't been in quite a while but today I felt the need to go. Had some CSA happen at my small. Church It has helped significantly not being in the bldg with flashbacks, etc but I miss the community. Have gone to a series of other churches but today I want to go to MY church. And it probably is not a good idea to go impulsely so for today I won't. But I'm sad and angry and lonely. Urrgh.