Peanut,

I don't know why when I am depressed, I hate daytime or sunshine days. I feel THE WORST when I wake up in the morning and see the brightness. Can't help to have suicidal thoughts... But this time situation is better than before, so I think I wouldn't do such thing for real.....

Just want to wait to the evening, when it's much quieter, then I will have some music on, keep only very dim light in my rooms... have a talk with God, say my prayers... that's aboout the nicest thing I can imagine...

Best,
Toni

[i] What our mind can conceive and believe, it will achieve.