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Originally Posted by onlymedid
yeah, I ended up drinking last night, too....I did the two things yesterday that I shouldn't have done.
I think my depression is getting the better of me right now. I go to my doc tomorrow and I am going to talk to him. He is going to be mad that I did what I did, but I have to be honest with him if I want his help.
I didn't want to be a bit hung over this morning, but I am. I feel like I need to start over today......it's another day, right? I get a do-over?
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your update had some pearls of wisdom. talking about this with your T is a good thing. he/she may help you understand with your input why you are doing self destructing things. why you avoid your emotions and life. it's like a vicious cycle but you can get off at any "stop" you choose.
starting your day over is good too. i found beating myself up about relapsing only made me want to drink/use more to forget. instead we can learn by these things and change for the better!
and u're correct, using or drinking causes depression once the drug leaves our body.
so begin a new day and focus on doing things positive for you.
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