i understand your hate. i actually wish i could get there.. I have no feelings at all. I've never been mad. Its not healthy.. I think you should allow yourself to move through this stage. Feeling anger is appropriate. That was a horrible thing. We should feel angry when any child is hurt. I do agree..that one day.. hopefully the anger with hate... will change to just anger that abuse. But for now.. I understand..and almsot wish i had some of your anger