sorry for the blurb in the part where i said it was over 10 years ago i meant to say when my oldest was a baby having a 13 & 3 year old i get mixed up sometimes when referring to them. when i did the post about my pawpaw i was also crying which it takes a lot 4 me to cry cuz of high zoloft dosage im on so thats saying something he was basically my dad showing us to fish & all that dont get me wrong i love my dad theres a history of mental illness in his family & hes done best he can he actually lives with me now i love it cuz we r so much alike too i was raised by my mom cuz they got divorced when we were babies i remember feeling so sorry 4 my dad but God has a way of mending things actually its my mom that makes me cringe now cuz shes critical & i finally just started talkin to her only when i have to cuz i dont wanna hear it & dont have to thanks for saying about very deep rooted strengths i needed that there have been people in my life that make me think im useless but we are valuable & special