Numbness for me equals total depletion of energy.
A flatness on a high plateau, where looking over the edge without judgement, can help me find which way to go in the future.

It does seem like a rest break, but there is nothing there to stay for, and I think of it as a deeper depression condition, and when I start to care again I almost 'miss' the days of flat numbness. I understand it is the stress chemicals in our bodies is over whelming our system, and even though I look like I am not moving, just gettting out of bed is a marathon.



I watch this lecture often to remind me that depression is common.
Depression is complicated.
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