you say she had a support structure few of us had... what do you mean? Therapist, PDoc, maybe some Family? She one of those lucky jerks who had lots of friends and other bull-crap?

I mean all i have is my Therapist who knows me best, and my PDoc, which may change to one i can afford/on my insurance, and my sister who i talk to this stuff about. i guess those are good things.

i guess another positive is that i journal a lot, and often; which i share w/ Therapist. (T checks my on line journal before we meet, and every so often between sessions.)

it doesn't alleviate how i feel though; it doesn't make the depression better, and it doesn't stop the intrusive thoughts about how people talk about me behind my back, and say bad things about me, etc.