Yea... i mean, everything about my personal life points toward me being happy for happy sake... but like i said. These chronic feelings of loneliness, and emptyness, and chronic dark deep depression that is the nature of our beast always gets me in the end. every time. i have a great job, and career, a college degree, half my school debt is paid for by now because of the hypomania that i had coming out of college and a few times in college.

but... it all seems to come falling down when i'm depressed. the nature of it all.