I know, i sounded very selfish.
But Robert is the ONLY person in the world who loves me more than he loves anyone else (except his mum, but i obv dont mind that) who wouldnt be scared to lose that..
I create worlds where i am at the centre and now i am getting older its extremely difficult to keep that going. But Robert looks forward to seeing me, checks with me what i am doing before he would make plans with anyone else.
I've read all about borderline and yes some of it applies, but some doesnt. i dont care what people think of me and i dont change my personality according to me wanting others to like me. No one likes me, i am bloody difficult to like, thats why i am so lucky to have Robert, the one person who likes me just as much as i like him and we get on all the time, and can make each other laugh EVERY DAY!
I've spent some time with Robert and Adam and some of our mutual friends and have been enjoying it.
Its this bit here thats hard, when i know that i would have decided about 9 to stay round Roberts tonight, but he is at Adams, so i cant. How am i meant to deal with that? He is like the other half of me.
He even said the other day, that he loves the fact that people know we come as a pair, but we wont when he falls in love with Adam and i'm not the most important person in anyones life.
Do you know what i dont even think i have bipolar, i think i just want someone to REALLY love me.... and when i feel loved, i'm happy and when i dont i'm sad, so in the end i'm just a normal person. i've just made myself cry and then laugh, what a loser!!
i know this post is old, but its so current for my life.