Firstly apologies-
I seem to dip in and out of PC a lot,can't seem to maintain a constant but I hope that everyones doing ok

Recently ive had really intense feelings of depression which i havent had this bad in a few years. Its been going on for a few months now and ive talked to friends about it and they suggested i go back to therapy or counselling or some form of help where i can talk etc. Im not even sure if i want to open up the whole thing of counselling and therapy again..sometimes it seems like its all too much

I started college this year so i do have the counselling service available to me there but im not sure if i was going to get help if i would contact them or my local gp. The reason being im really not very good at expressing myself,so trying to explain my feelings and emotions to somebody new and having a lot of sessions with them just getting to know me. While if i go to my gp, im going to someone who knows me and knows my feelings etc. It may seem like a silly question, but to me its just a bit confusing. I do feel very comfortable with my gp and i know i can talk to her about things but to make an appt with her would be 50euro while the counselling service in my college is free.also i know that if i go to my gp,it would be a once off thing and she would point me in the right direction from there and that counselling wouldnt be. but sometimes i feel maybe im just making a big thing out of nothing..idk im very confused

This may be a thing i might have to decide myself i realise that but im looking for suggestions because im unsure and my heads all over the place at the mo.
cheers