Hi Gravyyy, I've thought for days now about whether or not I should reply to this post. I am here for my daughter and want to learn. It is amazing how her life and symptoms mirror much of what others are going through. I don't participate in a lot of the conversations because I don't feel comfortable as I do not have an illness and I wouldn't want to offend anyone.

I have been on here a little more than a year now on and off and I remember you. When I needed to understand something, when I was trying to figure out what she was going through I almost always took comfort in your posts. You are a very intelligent person with a heart of gold. You are compassionate, understanding and very insightful. I was worried about you when you stopped posting but I can certainly understand how this may be triggering. I was hopeful that you were feeling better.

I think that one thing to consider is how your family may feel about it. Will it substantially change things for them, their way of life, their retirement? If it does, and the treatment is less than successful, how would that make you feel? There is a program like that near where we live, with some fantastic reviews from former patients but then again, they wouldn't advertise the less than fantastic reviews. I have certainly considered it more than once for my daughter. Wouldn't it be great if it were covered by insurance? I remember you considering this program several months ago. That's when I was doing research as well.

If your family can afford it, then why not? Would you lose your job if you were away that long? After the program would you pick back up with your current pdoc and therapist (assume that you have these, I don't remember that much of the details) or would you change? I don't know what part of the country you are in but do you have good quality doctors around, perhaps you could find one that specializes a bit more.

I hope to hear that you are feeling better and that you are doing better. Hoping for positive changes that will help you through this and will strengthen you on a life-long basis.