Thanks everyone...
lavieenrose, I don't think I'm there yet but that is a good idea. I could see that people could find this helpful.
Does anyone struggle with the feelings that if the kitchen floor remains dirty then it says "this or that" about you as a person? I struggle with this one. If I were a "better person" I would be able to clean the whole house tomorrow and also get the four chapters of my textbook read as well as go to the gym too. I get so frustrated with myself that I just don't have the energy I wish I had. Instead of accomplishing these things I may only read a chapter of the book I got about childhoodtrauma. Oddly, this is hard too as I find the book psychologically exhausting. It's like life needs too much from me.