My Dad is a dishonest cheater. He has always lived two lives it is no wonder I do not trust ppl. He had four of us kids with our Mother and Bless her heart tormenting her like she was nothing and then left her for the love of his life he who he still sees today when we were growing up and have weekend visits at their home together. Dad was very happy then with his "friend" and pouring drinks for us all, marjuana seasoning in the food..it was the 70's right. So, just a couple of years past and he decided to marry my now stepmom that was 18 years ago. Omg, the family visits feel so auditioned and Dad is so awkward he is someone else.. I just feel like saying "do yourself and us a big favor and go be with the love of your life".
Now I am 45 bp like dad is too. I am straight but 2 divorces. Trust issues are huge..very hard to feel Love..and believe Im worth loving.. Also, I start imagining my bf has someone else better for him he should be with and I even picture what she looks like and then I go. God Bless All, Rain