I think that my OCD thoughts are getting worse. I am not 100% better. I cannot watch a video, movie, or tv show without having the fear of someone cheating or being cheated on, particularly with a lot of people. I have been feeling dizzy all weekend long, plus I have been nauseated. I have tried to enjoy life, but now I have come to a realization that life will be hard because I have to deal with these issues every single day. I should go to sleep, but I am afraid to. It is not as bad as it used to be, but there are times when I wait for the world to end. I have been having thoughts about racism and I have not written in a journal in months because I thought I was getting better, but right now, I am getting worse. After a fun holiday season, I am down. I need help and I don't know what to do. I just need someone to talk to.