Hi. Hope you're feeling better. Church has been a big help to my duaghter (15 and bipolar), but we've always been a church-going family. Last night she told me she needed to go to her church youth group meeting because she needed to be with her "church friends." Going to a church the first time can be intimidating, but you will likely find people there who will welcome you. If your impulses pull you that way, you might want to take that step. Again, God bless you--hope you're feeling better.